So I'm going to be looking back on July, August and September and whether they related to the cards I pulled during the workshop back at the end of December.
For the energy of July, I pulled the Ace of Spears. To me, this card was all about deciding which way I wanted to go. This card is all about intentions and goals I want to achieve but looking back, I didn't really do this at the time and I spent a few months after this feeling like I was floating aimlessly within life. So I should have paid attention to it but with everything else, I just took a break for a little while and didn't look at this project in time. At least when taking everything else going on at that time, this card was warning against not having a clear intention/goal and showed that I needed something as a target.
For the resources of July, I pulled the King of Swords. With this card, I feel like the message was to stand tall in my own power and strength which I feel like I did but perhaps I might have frozen the world out a bit too much. At the same time, this was when I experienced some difficulty with my medical situation so I felt like I had to stand up for myself and fight for what I believed was right. I do expect and give respect to those who give it to me - it's earned and not automatically given without reason. So when I'm treated without respect, no matter who it is, I do tend to become defensive and start to freeze people out of my life. I suppose it's a coping/survival resource of mine that is still useful so it stays but I will be more mindful of it.
For the energy of August, I pulled The Moon. With this card, my only initial thought was that I needed to reconnect with my intuition but also with my emotions. I needed to follow where my emotions led me as they were, and always are, connected to my intuition. There was an element of needing to take a leap of faith so that I could fly free within my life but at the same time, I couldn't control what came next because I was supposed to trust. The choice was mine to make whether I took that leap of faith and I'm not entirely sure whether I chose to take it or not.
For the resources of August, I pulled Justice. With this card, I feel like I was being asked to weigh everything up and be objective about the situations I was facing. This card spoke to me of balance, which I did not achieve by any stretch of the imagination but it's definitely someting I could start to incorporate into my life. There is one aspect of this card that I feel was relevant and that is truth. Justice can only be served when honesty is brought in. So I needed to stand tall in my own personal truth as well as bring that truth to light regarding a situation I faced during this time.
For the energy of September, I pulled the Seven of Cups. This card was all about choosing the direction I wanted to go in life. I feel like I procrastinated making a choice, partly because I felt like I didn't know what direction I wanted to go in but also because I didn't want to make a choice then. I wanted to choose when I made that decision. But in all honesty, I did make a choice; it just wasn't necessarily one of those that were presented to me. I chose a different direction but I still made a conscious choice. My choice was to wait and see, rather than make a decision as soon as possible that could have taken me down a different path.
For the resources of September, I pulled the Queen of Cups. This card spoke to me of flow and peace, of finding a sense or feeling of one-ness, possibly through meditation. It was around September when I returned to a hobby that I hadn't really picked up much since 2019 (when I did a project that took almost 7 weeks and exasperated me in the end): cross-stitching. I can lose myself while stitching because I have to focus on what I'm doing so I don'tgo horrendously wrong and end up unpicking a lot of stitches. Cross-stitching helps with my emotions because I know I can't do it if I'm feeling stressed or sad but especially not if I'm irritated at something (other than the project).
All in all, July, August and September were not what I expected but they definitely had plenty to teach me. I did pull some cards around the medical situation I faced in July which will feature in their own post. Other than that, these cards were very relevant and resonant with what I faced during those months.
I hope this continues to inspire you to do this for yourself.
Peace and love to all!!!!
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