So Day Two was all about why I want to connect more with my intuition and setting intentions around this. There were some questions asked that I will answer later on here.
I always struggle with setting intentions because I never know what to set myself as a goal.
I've always had issues with setting goals because when I was a child, my guardian (not a parent) would judge my achievements as not good enough and would compare me to fellow classmates that I ended up resenting. Or I'd be compared to other family members who had done whatever - even if I didn't show any inclination of "following in their footsteps". I never felt like I was good enough for my guardian. I actually said this to them via text message a few years ago and as much as it hurt to have to say this to them, since then I have felt far more free than before.
So, I don't set intentions because I don't want to let anyone I care about down. Even if that means that I have next to no plans, I'd just rather not disappoint my friends.
Why do I want to develop my intuition?
I want to be more self-confident and trust that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, helping others and passing on messages that are wanted and/or needed. I want to be able to read tarot and oracle cards, as well as runes, more intuitively without needing a guidebook to refer to.
What would I gain from trusting my intuition?
Mainly, I feel like I would gain a lot more self-confidence and self-assurance. The self-doubts would hopefully stop (or at least wouldn't be so loud!). I want to be able to trust myself completely as a Divine creation and creatrix.
How will my intuition serve me? What will I be able to do with it? What else?
I want to stop questioning myself and the Universe so that I can simply trust Life and the whole idea of living. I want to be able to help others by being able to read tarot and oracle cards easily.
How does Ego block my intuition?
I want to know things and be able to pull information easily for others without needing to consult books or researching topics extensively. Sitting with the idea of "not-knowing" is very hard for me.
How can Ego serve my intuition?
I can't know everything there is to know. I have to become comfortable with the idea of "not-knowing". Again, this leads back to my childhood where I was always pushed to know things before the new school year started and my school holidays were never just fun because I had to spend every morning reading and progressing through workbooks.
What else do I need to know about my intentions around my intuition?
I want to stop feeling that I need to do everything and know everything, stemming from the idea that if I don't do this then I will be missing out on experiences. I want to be able to trust myself that I am making the best decisions possible at any given moment.
Karena did suggest a little ritual to free myself of past doubts which I ended up combining with a New Moon ritual that I started on Monday. Karena's idea was to write a letter to my past self. Now, I didn't write a letter for this bit but I did use a notepad that I've had for a couple of years at this point. With the New Moon in Gemini ritual, I had started to write a love letter to myself to communicate better with my own Self and rather than just seeing all the "bad" or negative things, I focused on the good. I hadn't realised this at the time but I had actually written "Release yourself and be free!"
So, for this new lunar cycle, I've set the intention to love and heal myself. I don't always do the best job of taking care of myself, so as much as this may sound selfish, it's really not because self-care is always necessary. I can't look after others or help them if I don't take care of me at the same time. I have a tendency to give this advice to others while not really implementing it for myself. A couple of years ago, I was gifted a set of pencils with little phrases on them and the one I am currently using has the reminder to "Love yourself more" and I think it's about time I listened to it.
I hope this inspires you to consider why you might want to connect more deeply with your intuition and how you can love yourself more by releasing the past and who you used to be so that you can truly own who you are today.
Peace and love to all!!!
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